i hate you but i love you MORE and MORE!!!!

I hate you for giving me hope in life when all there is, is despair.
I hate you for giving me this strife and making the world seem so unfair.
I hate you for ever wanting me and letting me know such happiness.
I hate you for just leaving me to feel the worst loneliness.
I hate you for telling me lies when I believed all that you said.
I hate you for letting me die as I lay helpless in my bed.
I hate you for holding my hand when it swung content by my side.
I hate you for existing in this land where we must coincide.
I hate you for smiling on a dreary day when my frown is seen through the haze.
I hate you for letting come what may when you could’ve stopped it in so many ways.
I hate you for saying you loved me when I asked you not to say it back.
I hate you for letting me see our relationship crack.
I hate you for not letting me hear the cruel things you say when I’m not there.
I hate you for not letting me near when my soul I need to bare.
I hate you for giving me a glance when I think I look beautiful.
I hate you for the second chance that left me incredibly hopeful.
I hate you for not hearing me out when I want to beg and plead.
I hate you for making me doubt my opinion, to which I pay heed.
I hate you for all the things you said that made me most content.
I hate you for turning my head because I still think you’re a god-send.
I hate you for this excrutiating pain I barely endure every night.
I hate you for the constant rain my soul must fight.
I hate you for being there so now I’m doomed to miss and remember.
I hate you for giving me reason to care what happened back in September.
I hate you for saying goodbye and leaving me not knowing what to do,
But most of all,
I hate you for letting me cry ’cause I can’t have you.

I hate the way you tell me you love me. . .you miss me. .but,u LEAVE ME . .I hate when you tell me you miss me

I hate the way you make me think of you. ..I was getting over you, But you had to call
And tell me you still nid me. .I dont wanna wait
I want to be over you nawfarl
You give me more and more pain if u SENYAP
I hate you for doing this to me
I hate how I still love you .I wish I would non stop loving you
I am that kind of girl that hates you but i love you more lah NAWFARL
My heart wants to hate you but i CAN't lha SENGAL
It hurts way to much if you SENYAP
I wanna LOVE you not to HATE you!

plissss~

sayangs u my eberytinx =')

NawFarl DarIen

(kesian awak pening ngan pangai saie)

I love you so much my sweetheart . I know thats not enough to describe the feelings of my heart but that beats only for you . I'm always think about the moments that I have spent with you . My heart feel so enjoy and happiness . I love you so much handsome *kompem prasan kan. . .hahaha . You are the best thing I ever happened to me and I ever had . Our relationship 2week actually right ?sory sayangs i fail to meet u for 7 time. but i want u to knoe everyday i fall in love with you . everything about you is so beautiful to me . Wahh I love so much . In my life I really just want to see you happy I am willing you never let go okay . Just stay with me till forever . I love you ! I love you !i love the sound of your voice . I can't stop thinking about you when we are apart . I need you by my side . You complete me , you mean the world to me . You are the best thing that I ever happened to me . You are the one I have always . I never thought thatt I would ever meet someone special like you . I love each and every moment I share with you .

*for you dear

i'd like to tell you
how much I love you,
and I hope you know that I do...
I wish that the words I speak
so gently to you could be
heard by your heart
with the same meanings
and the same soft feelings of love
that they carry from deep within me.


For more than you know ...
I love so many things about you.
More than just the way you hold me
and the warmth you give;
I enjoy sharing life with you.
I enjoy the way we balance each other out,
how we share the good times
and support each other through the tears.
I enjoy the knowledge that we'll make it
through whatever life brings
with courage and with love
through the years.

More than you know ...
and more than I can ever say,
I feel a wonderful thankfulness
in my heart ... just for you.
And I want you to remember, though
my thoughts don't always convey
and my feelings don't always show,
I love you, and I always will ..
more than you know.

i promise only u in my heart sayangs

sayangs~

 i Appreciate the simple things in life 

Appreciate the good things in my life and be thankful for the time i have with you da loved ones.

If you wish to be appreciated, i be ever grateful.

If you wish to be loved, i give love in each moment.

If you wish to be wealthy, i act to create real value.

If you wish to learn, i take time to teach.

If you wish to be respected, i be ever respectful.

oke sayangs?

No fear, No hate, No grasping oke :). 

SUMPAH i LOVE u ='[

NawFarl DarIen

meykom sayangs. There is nothing much to say here. Because my love to you is indescribable by words. For having you in my life is the most beautiful thing that happens in my life. And you are the best part of me. Thank you so much because you're always be with me in ups and downs. Sometimes we fight too much but we always be able to fix it back right dear? By knowing you always love me all the time is the greatest feel that ever happens. I know its totally hard to stand it when it comes to my immaturity, insecurity, my over pampered attitude, my over jealousy, and sometimes I hardly to be understand. Its so blissful when you always be patient to handle me at my worst. You deserves everything about me because you are the greatest penx I ever had. For being far from you sometimes bring the insecure feelings because you have your own speciality in yourself. For these 12 days of being together, I thank you for being with me all the time. I couldn't ask more. I am sorry because sometimes I being too over about something, but actually I do it because I do love you so much. My loyalty is beyond imagination. Oh I almost forgot, I am sorry for not being with you on this special day of yours. But I always be in your heart right? 

i love you nawfarl

i mishyew nawfarl

muahcxsssss~

lose control ="[

Why i am crying? Actually i really do not know why i am crying right now. I hate this feelings. It keep hurting me again and again and all over again. Many questions hovering my heads. My mind filled with many things, many questions without any answer. I hate myself. I hate my attitude, always being weak in every hard condition I face through. Dear heart, please be more stronger? I can't stand it when you being hurt always. Please do not break into pieces. I do not know how to fix you after that. Dear heart, I am a hyper super duper sensitive girl and always be a silly paranoid person. I have a very low self-confidence that make me always being hurt by a little small tiny things. Dear heart, i beg you. Please listen to my soul. I need you to be tough in every ups and downs during my daily life. And dear heart, please keep my faith to everyone that I love with all my heart. I ♥ NAWFARL, I have to change my personal attitude so that they will love me just the way I do.

Yeah, I am not perfect at all. I hurt everyone around me. Actually I want to write a special entry just for keeping my memories into black and white. So that, I won't forget it. But, that entry no longer being writen. Its have been stopped just one hour ago. Just because I have no mood right now. That entry will being post later on and I don't know when. I really in a misery right now. I am now breathless. It was the first time I felt so speechless.  I felt like everyone hates me. I really write this entry according to my broken heart. seriously. Am I that selfish? I am not like that. I care about others more that myself especially for my beloved ones. Maybe I did not realise that I hurt others feelings. Maybe I did not realise how selfish I could be to someone. I am really sorry sayangs. I not that type of person that full with selfishness. I am sorry because I did not realised it. What I am gonna do now? I am gonna to think wisely and make my decision. I should covered back my wrongdoings. I am really sorry. I am full with guilt right now. Oh whats I've done? How can I do that? My heart cried all over again right now. Do you know how its feel right now? I feel like a huge rock smashed onto my chest and broke my heart into little tiny pieces. Do you know how its feel? I am sorry because I do write all of this in my blog. I think I should get it out so that I won't feel down until I can not stand anymore. I am truly sorry DIDI. 

Sincerely,♥

nikie nawfarl ="(

im sory sayangs~

♥I have no idea how much I wish you're here sitting besides me. And share stories like we always do. Yes, I admit that it was a little bit weird and awkward when I am thinking about the distance between us. By thousand miles away,we still having each other. So, here, I want to send some love to express my longing to you NAWARL :']
sayangs did u know what is love? L to the O to the V to the E, love!  sayangs did u gave all of your heart to me? Do u willing to sacrifice anything just to see your beloved ones being happy and smile always? Do u ever feel sad whenever they feel sad too? Do u? Oh yes, everyone seems to talks about their loves ones. By that, they feel like flying up to the sky. Just imagines how happy the person are when their in love. However, in love thingy, everything doesn't means always seems right and just full with happiness. Even love also have their BAD SIDE. 

The painful part of love is .......

When you missing them so much,
       They never noticed..

When you're very caring towards them,
       They push you aside..

When you wanna being pampered,
       They ignored you...

When you're felt jealous,
       They mad at you..

When you asking about their problem,
       They won't tell you..

When you loves them so much,
        THEY HURTS YOU..

There's other things also that have not being mentioned. Everybody get through of this kind of problems. So, everythings in this world is not perfect. Its have both side, good and dark side. ='(

NAWFARL sayangs,

I do not know what happened to me. What happened to my attitude? i am truly sorry my dear.I am a bad girl right? I wish I can deserves you better. Please forgive me? ='( I am afraid I'll not changed forever. I wish I could changes. I felt down. I felt useless. I felt I am nobody. I love you more than you tought. Love you. Do forgive me.

Your Love NIKIE, 

Someone that count on you ='(

Nothing i could say~

Hello everybody. How I'm gonna start this? Err okay, actually now I really need some motivation and supports for bringing back 'myself'. I think I have totally changed. Urm it is not just for physically, yeah I know I look fat and ugly right now -,-, but it is more to my attitude, my feelings, and how I control them.. yeah, its changing..ALOT. The worst part is I feel embarrased with myself. I have a very very very low self esteem right now. Err its not due to the hormones, or estrogen or whatsoever, it's because of my mental, how I think of myself. And for sure, I have lost my self confidence. totally. How I get rid of this thing? Only God knows how struggling I am to avoid this feels. One thing for sure, I will try my best to figure out whats wrong and overcomes my weakness. Insya Allah.

sayangs. . .

 ♥ I wishes you to have all the good things in life. May Allah bless all days of yours and our relationship. I pray for our long lasting relationship and friendship forever and after. ♥ 

oh goshhhh, I feel like wanna cry alot. I want to release all these feelings. The happiness and whatsoever miserable feelings is mixed up. So what should we called this feels actually? Ah just let it be. And I just can pray for the best. Amin.

From now on, I just have to follow the flow. No cries and no lies. I am not that weak actually, hey girl please find your soul. Be brave to face all your obstacles alone. From now on, I should be independent. I should stand by my own.

I wish you were here. 

I need you. ALWAYS.

Till then, I just can say I will pretend that you always here besides me. You always be at my side right? Because you're always here ; in my HEART.

If you're here, I swear I won't let you to go. I won't let you to leave me here. Alone without you. 

I am sorry. Sometimes I can't stand my feelings for a long time. I just wish that you will be here very very soon. I love you so much, nawfarl. :')

Sometimes I wondering ; do you missed me like I do?

love. . .love. . .love. . .

I need you like a flower needs the rain.
I need you for you can wash away my pain.
I need you more each day
I need you for you are so wonderful, in every single way.

I want you to caress my lips the way you always do.
I want you to look into my eyes and see my love for you.
I want you to hold me close to your heart.
I want you to know that I love you, need you, miss you, and want you
And I have for every single moment, right from the start. 

I Love You, Miss You, Need You

I love you more than all the stars in the sky.

I love you more as each moment passes us by.

I love you more with every breath I take.

I love you more with each promise we make.

I Love You 

You mean a lot to me

Whatever  whoever says , I Love You

You and you are special to me

May our relationship full of endless haters and treats

I Love You

tag. .♥. .tag. . ♥. .tag. . ♥

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heee~tenx sayangs tag i. .

oke i follow u yea hunn :]

AWAK RASE AWAK HOT TA??

hahaha. . .soklan cepu emas ye. .

jawapan nye TIDAK lha

saie cume MANUSIA biase jea

UPLOAD WALLPAPER YG AWAK GUNE SEKARANG :]

CECITER PASEI GAMBAR TERSEBUT

story pasei gambar nie :gmbar nie i tangkap waktu i baru lepas tindik taon lepas

lokasi :dalam bilik saje snap coz xcited muke penoh harta karun nie :)

muke bajet na cute je kan. .bhahaha..

KALI TERAKHIR KORANG MAKAN PIZZA?

OMG ta silap i 2 taon lepas kot waktu celebrate bufday adet i . .16 feb 2009 :)

LAGU TERAKHIR YANG KAMU DENGAR?

lagu MEMORI BERKASIH *achik&nana :)

APE KORANG BUAD WAKTU JAWAB TAG NIE?

i nga pujuk sayangs i. .dea merajok sampai na toreh-2 tangn dea :'(

NAMA PANGGILAN SAIE SELAIN NAME PENUH?
hee~name i NURASIQIN BINTI MUHAMMAD BUKHARI :)
name samaran i manyak lh dear~
bibi,nikie.eikin,bibort :
hahahahah :)




NAME YANG SAIE NA TAG 6 ORANG
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http://babylauraa.blogspot.com/
http://ikalovedomoelmo.blogspot.com/

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http://freshvibesmakky.blogspot.com/


ORANG NO.1 TU SIAPA?
no 1 nie boleyh dikatakan rapat lha even kteorang ta pena jumpe pun
masing2 bertukar2 pendapat~iloveyoukawans :)




LUAHKAN SESUATU DEKAT NO.5
yg no 5 nie QYY name dea..lately nie keteorang manyak chat..dea seorang kawan yg care. .
hah lagi 1. .keteorang nie bisnes woman yg bertauliah :)




NO 3 ADE HUBUNGAN NGAN SAPE?
no.3??name dea IKA YULIANA dea nie berchenta ngan NICH TRUFFLE :)
mereka sanat sweet ~




NO.2 PULAK MACAM MANE?
name dea lauara. .act sebelom nie kteorang penah gegado taw
pasei EQA ALMOND. .tapi sekarang nie kteorang bergabung pulak. .hahaha
ta tao na say mcm mane lha. .dea nie sanat sempoi lha. .darl ta sabar na jumpe u :)




KATE-2 CINTA DEKAT NO.4
oh tidak!dea kawan saje. .kami ta rapad pun sebelom nie. .
actualy nie lha penx c ika yuliana ue
cume untok 2 3 hari nie kteorang rapad lha coz dea bantu i untok memaki 
SI LONDON COKOROL UE
hahaha :)




SAPE PULAK YG ANDA TAG NO 6?
name dea syakey oke :)
dea nie sempoi lha. . .
bnyak kate2 semangat yg dea keluar kan untok i :)




FAKTA 7 ORANG YANG SAIE TAG. .

adinda joey ♥ kekanda dania

laura ♥ fiq

ika yuliana ♥ nich truffle

qyy kinot

 shakey ♥ rara 




I♥ALLMYFRENZ

TAKEN again :]

I Love You Sweetheart

You makes me fall so fast . It feel so good to call you my love . I know I have said I love you million's of time but I never get tired to saying it . You very special to me , you makes me laugh and the best thing you loves me !  The more I learn , I love you and I love you no matter what . I love just the way you are . I love you more than you know . . Swear dear I'm so happy .

HEY AWAK!

14 JUN 2011

2.27AM

TAKEN SUDA DGN DEA NIE :]

ONLY YOU IN MY HEART  NAWFARL 

I'll do anything , I'll give you my world

I'll wait you forever , I'll always be you girl

I'll show to you how much I love you 

NUR FARAH AUFA BINTI ZULKIFLI

921214-10-5***

I SAYANGS U DEAR 

SAYANGS

U BUAD I GILER

TIAP SAAT I PK U

TA PENA TERLINTAS SIKIT PUN NA TINGGAL U

HOPE KITE KEKAL LAME OKE :']

maap atas kekasaran saie lakukan tady

awak kene marah

awak kene maki

atas kesalahan yg bukan awak buad

maap yea :'[

I Just Need Three Words ( I Love You )

I love you so much and miss you so much . Please remember our love only for one second . I really hopes you never leave me because I never stops loving you in my life . Dear I'm sorry for hurting you today . I'm sorry for being away from you when you need me . I just don't know why . I always love you . My love for you even we always fight dear .  

iloveyoumoreandmoreSAYANG's

thanks K E K A W A N :']

i cube B A N G K I T untok tidak nampak lemah. .

thnx pade korang yg bnyk bagi kate2 semangat kata i.

sanat menghargai anda semue.

Eddy Ozill Falcao and Larra Esxandra even u olz kawan eqa tpy u olz stil paam i. .stil suport i even i da putoz ngan kawan u olz."you try think bout kesakitan yang dea bagi you . lelame you takan pk lagi da sal dea sayang . dea nga happy sekanx . so . for what you na meratap menanges sal dea . you siang malam pk sal dea . dea ? ade pk you ? tade kan ? jangan tunjox you sede . jangan menanges depan dea . jangan update kesedehan you to . you bole lalui seme neh . you still ade kawan kawan yang support youy . lepas kan dea . you layak untox lebe bahagea sayang :)" 

*i akan ingt+renung-2 kan ayat u bagy nie . :]

Lauraa Lexycious

hmm i phmm.. i pon ase cmtu.. tpy ce u pk.. its not fair kann.. if u teros wat at dri u cmnyy.. u hve to move on jgakk kann.. let her be.. i tao susa.. but try hard oke.. tuka DP tu dluu :)

*ta sangke orang yg i benci dulu ternyate turut memberi semangat at i

n siap sugest DP lagi. .heee~

thnx L A U R A sanat menghargai . .BTW so sweet kapel :] 

Yuliyana Xaviar

thnx bagi semangat at i even hanye dalam im. . 

sanat menhargai kate2 anda. .wahh. .

*teringin na de relationship mcm u olz sweet like candy

Bellynda Aquarisa 

ta henti2 bagi semangat. . .n ta jemu2 dengar luahan atey i. .

thnx kawans coz dari dulu tahan+paham ngan pangai i. .

*hope kite takan putoz kawan oke. . .

Yumi Yumiko

thnx kawans. . .teman an i waktu2 i sediyh n nid sum1. .

u kawan yg klakar. .n chilex jea. .suke sembang ngan u. .

*bile na turun ipoh. .mao meet+datinx ama u. .heee~

Marina Mim Fakhruddin

tetibe muncul at wall n say

WAHHH :) DF yg ny lagy chomel dary yg tdy nyee :) ♥

terharu i. . .wahh..

'' its good , there's no need to be sad anymore , bukan dea ksah lau kmo sdey kann ?"

*setuju 100% dgn ayat anda

NawFarl DarIen

awak sampai bler agak nye..??

jgn sbb uh,,awak smpai mcm ni oke

sy pham prasaan awk..sbb sy tawu

sume org mesti pnh lalui. .

tp ada lagy yg trukk dr awak ..kuatkan smgt

jaga ksihatan

rmai yg sygkn awk

*kate2 u uat i na gelak. . .hahaha. .BTW thnx :]

I♥ALLMYFRENZ